Life Family and the Pursuit of Sanity

or… adventures in infertility and babies and family drama!

Missing my Bean March 10, 2010

Filed under: Blueberry Bean,Miscarriage — arminta @ 5:58 pm

My Sweet Bean should be three months old this week. A quarter of a year. He should be smiling and amazing us with his natural amazingness. (Of course he was amazing, c’mon look at his parents!) I should be home taking him and the dogs for a walk on this lovely spring day. He should be here.

But, he’s not.

Even as I see my belly get bigger, listen to Sprout’s heartbeat on the doppler, and plan for the fall my heart aches for the ones I’ve lost. I want my Bean so badly I can’t stand it.

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