Life Family and the Pursuit of Sanity

or… adventures in infertility and babies and family drama!

Week in Review: 24 May 21, 2010

Filed under: Fall Baby,Pregnant — arminta @ 5:25 pm

How far along? 24w0d

Maternity clothes? Yowsa, outgrowing some of my tops… Short + Fat + Pregnant = Big Ass Belly

Body Hair? OMG it’s crazy. Growing WAY faster than I am accustomed. Also, right side grows faster now. CRAZY

Sleep? Can I have some, please?

Best moment this week? G getting all emotional about Lil G’s kicks while he was high on the anesthesia

Worst moment? Realizing my baby will have no great-grandparents

Movement? I love when he kicks me so hard my belly jiggles

Food cravings? Popsicles

Gender? Still a boy…

What I miss? Sleep, booze, food, my brain… you know run of the mill 24 week pregnancy stuff

What I look forward to: Washing baby clothes!!!

Milestones: Viability… VIABILITY!!! Obviously, want this little one in for another 12-15 weeks, but the fact that being born today isn’t an automatic death sentence? WHEW!

Emotions: To quote Katy Perry: They’re hot then they’re cold, they’re yes and they’re no, they’re in then they’re out, they’re up and they’re down…

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I am not good at vacations

Filed under: Blogging,I'm a bitch, here's why,Marriage,Pregnant,The Blah — arminta @ 2:48 pm

Last year I scheduled a vacation for the week before Memorial day and the week before Labor day. Last year I had two miscarriages. The first was found the week before my vacation week and the D&C was performed during the time that should have been vacation. The second I started bleeding on the Friday before we were supposed to leave.

This year I scheduled vacation for the week before Memorial day, and am due to have a baby around Labor day. This year my husband is recovering from reconstructive hand surgery and my grandmother is dying. (On the brighter side, the baby is still alive and looking to stay put for say 12-15 more weeks.) It’s looking a lot like vacation is going to be canceled again.

FUCK!

I really needed that vacation. I really needed time AWAY. Time to chill. Time to read on the beach. Time to not have to think about time.

FUCK!!! FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!!!

OK, I could have bigger problems right? Seriously, I have money for a vacation and a husband to go with and it’s a babymoon… So, really where do I get off being all whiny? Yeah, well, up yours voice of reason!

Yeah, so, that’s why I’ve been MIA and commenting so infrequently. We’re doing depression, Minta-style. Which means 1) wake, 2) work, 3) sleep, 4) repeat.

 

Am Boring and Lame and Stressed May 15, 2010

Filed under: Fall Baby,Pregnant,The Blah,The Fear,The Seventh Circle of Hell — arminta @ 10:30 pm

I’ve been a little grumpy and negative lately. Sorry ’bout that. Turns out I don’t handle stress very well and hoo-ha am I stressed. You wouldn’t think so, but a whole lot of issues are weighing on me right now… Like what?

  • The hubs’s injury… I’m worried about him. I think he’s pushing himself too hard. I think he’s not taking enough anti-inflammatories. I’m just worried. Not that he won’t make a full recovery, he will. But that the process is going to be overly difficult/painful.
  • Work… Yeah, I hate my job. Well, not my work, or co-workers or clients. Mostly just my boss. Well, I’m kind of burnt out on one client and their insane requests, but mostly it’s my boss. I really want to tell him to go shove it. But, of course, I can’t do that. Need to earn and save as long as I can.
  • Money… really worried about not having my income. I make a good bit of cash. We will struggle and be poor. OK, not POOR, but not where we are today. It is scary.
  • Baby G… starting to worry he will come early. Had some pain after walking Ikea today and for just a few minutes I was afraid it was labor. I just have a feeling he’s coming early. I might be wrong. I probably am wrong, but… still I  Have A Feeling.

I realize this is the same shit I was just whining about. Promise to remove my head from my own ass at some point and write about something of substance. Like baby kicks. Or how I still break into tears when certain songs play on the radio because “fuck I miss my Bean” or how I now think Bean was a girl because was Twilight obsessed and now am Black Eyed Peas obsessed (my boy loves the Fergie-Ferg).

I probably won’t get my head out of my ass.

Don’t count on that.

 

Surgery Date Scheduled May 14, 2010

Filed under: Fall Baby,I'm a bitch, here's why,Pregnant,The Blah — arminta @ 10:02 pm

for…

MONDAY!

Told ya!

We may still be able to make the childbirth orientation. If not… fuck it. I hear women wing this shit all the damn time. Who needs to be prepared for the most monumental experience of their life?

Yeah, that’s the ticket…

 

Burnt Out Randomness May 13, 2010

Filed under: Fall Baby,Marriage,Pregnant,The Blah,The Seventh Circle of Hell — arminta @ 8:03 pm

That doesn’t even begin to describe it. I am so tired. So ready to just not have to think for a few days. We have vacation scheduled for week after next, but I don’t know if we’ll be able to go now. I don’t hold it against G, it isn’t his fault he was injured. It just feels like another disappointment. I really need that vacati0n. Really. Really, really.

We see the surgeon in the morning. One more day working from home, hopefully we’ll be able to schedule surgery and get some dates and plans taken care of.

It’s getting hard to ignore my bosses petty attitudes. He says “work from home if you need to” to me, then talks shit about me behind my back… nice. I swear he’s a freaking woman. Monday is not going to be pleasant.

Childbirth class orientation scheduled for Tuesday. Who wants to place a bet on G’s surgeon wanting to schedule surgery for Monday or Tuesday?

In other news… I can feel Lil G kicking all the time. He’s so active. He loves the Black Eyed Peas. Turn on Imma Be or Boom Boom Pow and he goes crazy! We did a test the other night: Imma Be (crazy kicks), Iron Man (nothing), some Justin Bieber song (nothing), some AC/DC song (nothing), I Gotta Feeling (crazy kicks). Not exactly scientific, but I believe the results are accurate.

OK, gotta go watch Community now.

Told ya it was gonna be random. T-totally random, just random, just saying things as they come into my head… Oooh, ooh, there’s a picture of New York, a picture of New York, there’s a big old picture of New York… random. (If you don’t know Flight of the Concords, you must meet them soon.)

 

And the hits just keep on coming May 12, 2010

Filed under: Completely and Entirely Unrelated to IF,Family — arminta @ 9:29 pm

Today whilst I was teaching a class on something techy and dreadfully boring (I tried to not make it boring) my husband was having a bad day. I didn’t know it at the time. He pretended like all was well when I called to see how his day was going.

See, he was on his first trip away for the new position he was promoted to recently. A new office was opened and he had to go train the new people. One of the new people crushed his hand in the lift gate of a straight truck. Crushed. He will need surgery to reconstruct his thumb. Crushed. He may be off work until Lil G gets here. Crushed.

It is hurting me just knowing how much pain he’s in.

Really, God? This is so not helping your case…

 

Week in Review: 22 May 9, 2010

Filed under: Fall Baby,Pregnant — arminta @ 10:23 pm

How far along? 22w2d

Maternity clothes? They’re all I got, need more summer tops

Stretch marks? No change

Sleep? Getting a bit hard. Arms falling asleep, hips hurting, pugs breathing too f’ing loudly… But, I’ll take it. I would so rather choppy sleep with Lil G than awesome sleep without him.

Best moment this week? Anatomy scan!!! Seeing my son! I have a son!!

Worst moment? Another migraine

Movement? Everyday. Sometimes I think I should count and make sure I’m feeling him, usually count 10 kicks/movements in 10-15 minutes. Awesome!!!

Food cravings? Here’s the thing about food… yuck! On the one hand I want this to go away, on the other, baby’s growing and I’m not gaining weight, so that seems like a good thing to my vanity.

Gender? BOY!!!!

What I miss? Sleep, concentration and also zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

What I look forward to: Meeting my boy

Milestones: Good anatomy scan! (lost the weight from last week…)

Emotions: A lot of apathy and also excitement this week. Really odd together. (Excited about Lil G, apathetic about pretty much everything else)